We did it finally....just for her!

.....and boy, it was not easy!

Brett, Payton, Isaiah and I just finished a project that was ever so dear to us...our Josie's monument. We feel such a sense of satisfaction that it is ordered and it says exactly what we wanted it to say. Who she was, and how we felt about losing her. Trusting the one who has held us up. We feel we have done something for her - and we really, truely needed that. I promise to post pictures of our creation as soon as it arrives!

***As you are all aware, we have another munchkin on the way...

...and could I ask for anything more than what you see above??? Yes, we are indeed having another little boy. And we are very thankful for this new little life inside of me. The boys are very excited and really wanted a boy...because apparently, they feel that little girls are not healthy. Bless their tiny hearts - I can only imagine how they felt/feel about losing their little sister...I can not begin to comprehend their small minds and what truely goes through them!

We KNOW that this baby is a reminder of God's grace and goodness.

In my case there are so many "because" factors when it comes to justifying my fears (at least from my perspective :-) ). One of those fears is that His plan will include more heartbreak - and then next time it could hurt even more than it did when our thirdborn died. Maybe it will. In fact, I should probably plan for having more things disappoint me for the duration of my stay here on earth - it is, afterall - not heaven.

BUT - 18 months later - the truth is there to be examined in depth if I will only stop and look. He has held me. Loved me. Caused me to love Him more than I ever could have before. He has taught me that the end of fear is just that - fear. It accomplishes nothing short of it's own mass production.

God controls our every storm.

So, although I am impatient (me?) - so indescribably anxious to hold our baby BOY (I get shivers talking about him already!) and to smell his baby skin and love him from head to toe - I can give even that emotion back to God. I can face uncertainty because it isn't uncertain for Him.
It WILL work out in His timing the best way possible. And it will be good for all of us. Hasn't everything so far???

Hugs!

Cardboard Testimonies

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvDDc5RB6FQ

Okay, so I watched...and now have tears streaming down my face!

He really does heal ... and I am living proof.

P.S Be sure to pause my musicplayer while watching.

Carey...I am thinking about you!

I am praying for a very dear friend today and always as her heart right now is breaking. I wish I could take away all of your hurt and your pain Carey! Please know that you are in my many thoughts.....I am praying you find peace with everything. I am here always... with every bit of what I have, to give to you. Take care sweetheart! :-(

Holidays?

Where did they go???

I hope everyone had a great Christmas with Family and Friends! We sure did....I love it!

We started off ourholidays here in Tisdale with Brett's side until Boxing day in which we left for holidays to Calgary. While we were there, we enjoyed a few hockey games, a "little" (chuckle - sorry honey!) shopping, a day of skiing and some rest and relaxation (if you can believe it) at our fabulous hotel! We had a blast - Brett and I with the 2 boys! We arrived back into Saskatchewan on the 30th in which at that point in time took a very deserved detour to my family's place in Regina for the rest of our holidays. Had a great time, just still trying to catch up on some rest...we don't travel well! Hence the reason why it's taken awhile for me to post anything!

I am starting to have moments in a day where I feel like a human again...for the last 2 days, I have even made a hot supper! That is a big step for me! Although I still feel better eating cold foods, the rest of my family can not suffer any longer...they all can stand to gain a little weight!

Thursday this week (8th), I will see my family doctor once again for that "monthly" visit. Actually looking forward to maybe picking up babies heartbeat~~~oooo I just got the shivers thinking about that! I will then start seeing my specialist next week on the 15th! I am plugging along, thank Goodness....it seems like forever! I have MANY questions for the man....he may decide he does not want me as his patient after next Thursday! I will do shared care for the rest of my pregnancy with both doctors...I feel better knowing that I am WELL looked after! I am ever so fastly growing as you will see! Wow, I have now lost that line across my belly button (well kind of...at least make me think that) that looked like I was carrying 2 babies...one on top and one on the bottom - it was a "not so nice" feeling!!! I looked chubby, now finallyI think I look pregnant! Yay!!!

I will now leave you with just a few picks from our holidays (not very many), and scoot to bed - I am very tired and need to get up to get the kids off to school in the morning! Good night!

Love, Kim :)

Lovin' it!

So, I had this family come to me this morning and they were the funnest family ever!!! They made my job so easy just doin' their own thing and so I snapped away as they were all goofing off and it made for some great pictures! As you can tell, she was trying to be as tall as him and he was trying to be as short as her as neither one knew the other was doing that! Brotherly/Sisterly love!!

I am feeling tons better today by the way!!! I wonder if this is really going to pass? I still am very tired, but not as nauseous! Knock on wood!!! I'll take it and run though. Looking very forward to Christmas Eve tomorrow with the Casavants...I will post more of our exciting night of gift opening after they are snuggled away in bed waiting for St. Nick to arrrive...I have goose bumps thinking about their reaction! They are so excited about getting a snack ready for him tomorrow night! I can not wait!!

As I yawn...

Okay, so I can not lie! I have been spending alot of time in bed as I have been extremely tired latey!!! I can not get over just how tired I am...can barely drag myself out of bed at 8 a.m with the boys, have to have at least a 4 hour nap in the afternoon, and most nights back in the sac by 7 p.m when the kids go to bed!!! I hope I snap out of this quick or the boys in this house may forget who I am! And besides, it would be nice to feel at least half decent for at least one day!!! Wow, I don't remember being this tired with my other 3 pregnancies...I hope I am still normal!!!

I'll post again when I have a chance, but for now I need to go and spend some much needed time with my boys for the few moments I feel "okay".

???

Okay, so this morning I decide to do a "new" pregnancy ticker for the left of my screen so others can check in to see just how far this pregnant mama is. I go to my usual Lilypie.com as I did when I was pregnant with Josie and it says to me as the screen pops up.......

"Congratulations, your baby girl is 16 months and 13 days old today!"

Need I say anymore??? Arghhhhhhhhh!!! Totally was not expecting that!